The Awakening: Sowing the Seed of Faith

The Awakening: how do I begin except to say that I have much to learn about faith in Christ. For He is constantly sowing the seed of faith in my spirit. Each drop of a seed opens my eyes to the vastness of the unworked fields within me.

The Awakening chapter in my testimony is a flashback to the moment of impact where both my physical and spiritual realities came to an immediate and sudden stop. In the physical I was grappling with the sight of my slumped over husband next to me, my all too silent children behind me and a crumpled up metal frame surrounding me. In the spiritual, I was dieing a new death and didn’t even know it. The seeds that Elohim planted within me throughout the years finally died. A new creation in Him was about to come to life.

John 12:24

“Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.”

When Jesus spoke these Words I believe He was directly referring to His crucifixion. You know what though? I think most of us recognize that Yeshua’s Word is miraculous in the way that it contains many layers. Although spoken two thousand years ago, what Jesus said is applicable even to us in our day.

Hebrews 13:8

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.

On April 21, 2008 Yeshua Hamashiac began sowing the seed of faith into my life in new and incredible ways. There isn’t a moment that goes by where I don’t feel like I died on that day. For something new sprang forth from those ashes and blessed is He who saved me through it.

If you haven’t watched or read the beginning of the story you can do that here:

May Elohim bless you and keep you always.



Some study resources if you’d like are below. There are many more that you can search and read. Nothing beats reading the scripture itself and if you can find references to the Hebrew and Aramaic that is even better.

Alan Horvath: Life vs. Death, Soul vs. Spirit
Got Questions: What is the meaning of the parable of the sower?


My Personal Story of Faith: Part 1

I began writing my personal testimony of faith in 2009. Many times I stopped and struggled with the concept of sharing my life story (at least up to then anyway). I knew the Holy Spirit was leading me to do this but I was still struggling with self worth. One night when I was getting ready for bed I had a terrible feeling come over me. The feeling was so immediate and so bad that I thought something was wrong with a friend or family member. So I started calling everyone I knew to ask them if they were okay. Right around midnight, I hung up the phone with my dad. Thank goodness everyone was fine.

Almost immediately after hanging up with my dad I heard the Holy Spirit tell me “Finish the book….now!”

“Okay!, okay,” I replied. I guess you’d have to know and understand my relationship with Abba Father but let’s just say satire does exist. Several months later I finished. I’m glad I did. It was very healing to write out my journey with Jesus Christ because it caused me to remember all the ways in which He was present in my life. Choosing to share my story with others, however, was a different matter.  Did I really want to open up that much to strangers? If you knew me before, you would understand what a gigantic leap this was. I would never do something like that. Just take introvert and infinity as a multiplier.

Writing My Personal Testimony of Faith:

One of the questions I pondered during the months of writing this story was what should I call it? For a long time I struggled with titling the book Phoenix. I do love comics but I also know that there are some negative connotations associated with the symbol. The last thing I wanted to do was drive people away over a title. In the end, after a lot of prayer, I went with it. There was no other way that I knew how to describe the transition of death and rebirth I went through.

I’ll leave you with this thought. Sharing our stories is important. It brings our walk with Elohim into the reality of fellow believers. Despite our inherent nature of skepticism, testimonies are a cornerstone of fellowship. Whether we connect in person or online we should always connect with one another. Truly, we are blessed to live in a generation where we can touch lives around the world.

With all my love,


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